If no one ever sees this my words wont dissipate, nor will they disperse. They will remain the unguided thoughts of a 20 year old boy whos flauntless words will remain in exile of anothers eyes. They will remain for the sole purpose to feed the authors ambitions of a greater future from which a gloomy past has held.

Our chemistry’s created from the most extravagent design

I have more to say than I have ever said before, yet I cant seems to formulate a simple sentence. All I can do is replay my newest favorite song that I found at the perfect time, it is exactly what Im dealing with. I feel like ive lost a part of myself. A part of myself which I never really had. Im not sure how to act, or what to do. I wear a mask that holds nothing more than an illusion that nothing has changed. It seems my heart is getting yet another layer put on the wall that suronds it. There will always be a steady hand that holds me from her, it may be distance, time, fate, or just another person. I feel as though I have fought a battle, and with that lose has gone my ability to truely care for another. Never will I feel such chemistry with a person, it was something to throw at the pages of time. We just always seemed to mesh, every conversation was effortless, every action was flawless. Being someones something special never came so easy. I cant stay attached, I cant keep comparing others to her, its never fair. I could assure her that she is like no other. Seems those itching ropes will finally grab a hold of my hopes. Im killing myself for a few hours of friendly conversation with her, because after she leaves its like my soul fades and my body is left to finish this flavorless life. I dont know what to do, I dont know what to say. I guess all thats left is a goodbye………………..