If no one ever sees this my words wont dissipate, nor will they disperse. They will remain the unguided thoughts of a 20 year old boy whos flauntless words will remain in exile of anothers eyes. They will remain for the sole purpose to feed the authors ambitions of a greater future from which a gloomy past has held.

My mid-vacation summary.

So i have a few days left in Florida before I go to my empty abyss of a life in Arkansas. Its been an amazing trip. Heres a brief summary of the days so far.

1. Got to tampa on the 22nd at 11pm. I stayed at my cousins house with the fattest pug ive EVER seen!

2. The 23rd I went downtown to channelside with natalie, her sister, and some foreign guy who was actually pretty cool. We went to Bennigans….the only one left apparently, then when that closed we went across the way to some bar which I cant recall. Overall an awesome night.

3. The 24th I stayed at my grandparents house…i dont think anything really too big happened.

4. The 25th was Christmas of course, had a great time with ALL the family. Had an amazing dinner, then stayed up with the cousins and learned the soulja boy dance…yeah i know.

5. After that Its all kind of a blur. There was multiple mall visits. There was moes, cheesecake factory, baileys shakes! There was UFC fights at buffalo wildwings, there was insane beerpong…with a official table and all. I think ive been sober 2 nights since ive been here.

Ive done so much here and had so much fun but I have also lost something I never thought I would. Ive lost the will to try. I understand now why the past is just that…the past. Sometimes things never change….other times they always change. With no goodbyes looks like I’ll just have to sever the ties. Im not sure Ill ever see some of my old friends again. But as long as I dont forget what was, then I’ll never lose what we had.